courage

hmm should i pluck my courage to tok to him..budden i reallie need to plan my speech..hmm maybe tokking face to face or on e phone such tat he hear my voice or see me will have a deeper impact..hmm i think face to face is greater impact..eh yah..candice should fight for my own hapiness..should try harder..nothing is impossible..juz have to convince him and go thru everything tog and emerge stronger..and not juz give up on a small obstacle..hmm true..she reallie give me couirage..budden whether i can do it is another thing..

lately

hmm went for running on thurs on e treadmill at office..hmm went up to 12..reallie want to run my lungs outa nd yah..budden felt better after tat lah..hmm maybe running reallie helps..hmm build up level of endorphins lah..yah..so that i feel better?budden back to reality i still feel like shit..dunoe why on earth i ve to go thru all these..

i told my frens..im reallie tired..too taxing on e mind and heart..tatz why..super tired..i reallie need a break..want to go away bydden no one can go with me..e guys ve to apply for exit permit..cos they still in ns..hmm yah lor..cos they got holiday after pop wad..hmm maybe juz stay at sentosa lah..thou will remind me of e times..budden at least got beach i can sit down and enjoy e stars..and let me feel better..better if got pple with me..so i wun feel lonely..lend me a shoulder if i cry..hope i will return as a stronger person..wish me luck..

my personality type

INFP

Usually gentle and kind, they are intense and passionate about their values and deeply held beliefs, which they share with trusted friends. Because of their discreet manner, their enthusiasm may not be apparent. They are sensitive to others' pain, restlessness or general discomfort and strive to find happiness, balance and wholeness for themselves in order to help others find joy, satisfaction and plenitude. They are deeply empathetic.
They live life in an intently personal fashion, acting on the belief that each person is unique and that social norms are to be respected only if they do not hinder personal development or expression. They strive to adhere to their own high personal moral standards and are particularly sensitive to inconsistencies in their environment between what is being said and what is being done. Empty promises of adhering to something they value – such as environmental causes or human rights - set off an inner alarm and they may transform themselves into modern day Joan of Arcs.
They are quietly persistent in raising awareness of cherished causes and often fight for the underdog in quiet or not-so-quiet ways. In a team, they will raise issues of integrity, authenticity, and good or bad, and may to opt out if the team refuses to address the questions raised.
They are usually tolerant and open-minded, insightful, flexible and understanding. They live for the understanding of others and feel deeply grateful when someone takes the time to get to know them personally. They have good listening skills, are genuinely concerned, insightful, and usually avid readers. At their best, they inspire others to be themselves.

things dun last

went thru quite alot..haiz..realise tat things dun last..bad things always happen when u are at ur happiness..

when ure up at e top of e clouds..someone will push u offe cloud and there u go..under free fall to e ground..badly hurt..

i hate it!!!

moody

haiz reallie feel super moody todae..keep thinking budden i dun see why i shld..budden feel like crying..im damn hurt..

guess i need time to get over it..haiz..itz so super sudden..carna ccept it..

todae

hmm totally out of my mind todae..nto concentrating..haiz..die liao lah..watz going inside me..

haiz dilemma..

todae

hmm busy day lah..nowafays workload become ehavier..yah lor..hmm eh budden todae ending super disappointing..budden luckily got wk lah.,.thanx boy..

training!! and todae

hmm todae have db trng again..hmm budden is kinda different..eh row all e way from kallang to spore river until e reverse bungee there..super far..siao..hmm din noe at first tat nasiman wanted to go spore river and e suggestion was supported by e jnrs..so off we went..den after tat we rowed past under e merlion..stupid idea..hmm haiz yah lor..den kinda got wet..yah..den so we row right into spore river..until e regatta there dene jnrs want to go futher in..so we went to e reverse bungee there ebfore turning back to kallang..hmm quite tired lah..

den after tat go sngkang meet jo..eat lunch at abt 3..siao..yah lor..at compass point..ate kfc..fat!!den drank starbucks..haha went to buy food to go yong house eat steambaot..hmm den after tat emet e ret and off we go lah..

his house quite small lah..his wife is super thin!!!!like olive and popeye..haha..yah lor..eh think i spell wrongly..nvm..budden stayed for e arsenal match lah..den like 11pm liao..so junhuang shar moses and me took cab home..took abt 30mins..super tired now..

*yawn..*

hehehh

hmm carn believe i haven been blogging for e past few days..haha..updates!!

eh thurs went for a run at e treadmill at office..hmm juz a short while lah..hmm long time nv run liao so feel abit like shit..haha..hmm yah tatz all lah..cos feel quite low..so go for run and eat chocs hoping tat it will rise lah..

fri..super busy day..hit for work non stop all e way until lunch time..went to nus career fair..hah hmm got alot of booths..budden quite alot for engineers..hmm haha den i won a cushion at e macdonald booth..haha set a record timing for completing a jigsaw puzzle..hmm hha yeah..hmm den go back to office den work again..non-stop until 530..which is e end of e day..haha..yah lor..den went for tuition lah..

hmm called him budden din tok much lah..liddat lor..miss ya..

shit

hmm haiz so sian level f endorphins is running low..hmm haiz imagine i got quite sad when he dun want to meet..oh no what's happening..hmm haiz trust me to get unhappy over such a small thing..haiz dunnoe lah..so sian!!!

argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

post v dae

hmm todae went to work..so sian..after so many days of holiday den todae go back super sian..reallie dun feel like working..hmm wonder whether tat will happen to me when i go abck to sch..haa..yah lor..hmm eh todae met candice after work..hmm haha yeah we arranged to meet lah..and tues is half price gor gelare waffle!!!haha she feels rich so treat me to waffle icecream!!1 yeah!!!haha..hmm yah lor..den after tat walk ard..hmmm wanted to buy this track suit tat cost only 46 plus..damn cheap..somemore is e whole set..hmm oh no..i feel like buying..budden haiz dunnoe whether worth e money..hmm nvm..budden is e track suit and track pants!!!oh no!!!

v dae

haha todae's valentine's day!!!hmm thou many of e gals could not spend with their dears due to ns..hmm guess im damn lucky..yeah..

had quite a short day..hmm woke up ard noon..and there goes half oof my day..exactly wat i want..cos got off todae..yah..since ive got nothing else better to do so i decided to slp lor..untill i could not slp anymore..den spend e afternoon cleaning e house and make e prez for honey..yeah..so met him at night cos he had to work..haiz den we went to orchard lah..short meeting..nvm..itz ok lah..

hmm no prez no flowers..budden dun mind lah..todae's ones are all so exp!!hmm stupid pple trying to make money out of this special day..hmm anyway we had kfc and den took bus down to orchard..haha wat a special v dae..hmm frankly speaking..actually quite jealous lah..cos everyone was holding a bouquet of roses or other types of things..hmm budden look..if everyone is carrying e same things den it wouldnt be special anymore..rite..haha watsmore itz so damn exp lah..and soon it was ard 930 n roses on e streets are going as low as 2 bucks per stalk..so damn cheap lor..itz worthless liao..haha watz e point..well anw i dun mind lah..or is tat self consolation..haha

todae dun look like a special day cos everytime im with him it feels like v dae..haha..isnt tat sweet..haha..

yest and todae

hmm juz came back from sentosa..haha damn fun!!!had a memorable time there..

hmm well anw yet was a super rush day for me..yah..had trng den rush hme den dash out of house after packing my things to go orchard to meet candice and shileng and alwyn..haha..den after tat meet jh..hmm eh e 3 pple up there were so curious tat they wanted to take a look who he is..haiz..hmm anw they juz follwed me along lah..hmm eh yah knda itnroduced them and jh introduced himself lor..stupid alwyn say..erm nic to meet u and stretch out his hands to shake jh's hands..erm..felt so super duper awkward..wahaha..

hmm den we went to sentosa liao..

after sentosa we went to watch seoul raider..hmm wanted to watch hotel rwanda budden time slot was over..so went to ps to watch constantine..budden it was full and seats were left with the front 4 rows..so yah changed our mind and watch seoul raider lor..

hmm e movie..super farnie..worth e money..alot of fighting..budden is so crap and farnie..hmm haha luckily chose e correct movie..haha..

3rd day of CNY

hmm went to candice's house todae..haha hmm yeah her mother gave 10 bucks..haha tatz e most i got frm a fren parents..haha shiok..din expect ehr to give so much...hmm haha..hmm well anyway told her liao..she was like expected..hmm din want to tell her lah..given e fact tat yah..hmm she looks ok..budden kinda sorry tat i told her..yupz..

anyway..we played mahjong and den heart attack..cos play mahjong until quite sian..damnf arnie..play until i laugh until my stomach is aching..haha..yah..itz damn farnie and exciting..hmm den after tat we played game of life..hmm haha im quite rich actually..thou im a poor athlete..ahah..damn fun..

so after tat we went town to shop..cos alwyn wanted to buy cap..haha..eh yah..so candice and i decided to treat them lor..budden alwyn nto free..he has to go hme for dinner..so only treated e 2 guys to breeks..hmm spent 30 lah..quite ok rite..i dunoe..

den after tat we walked all e way frm taka to marina promenade..for e river angbao thing..yah...super crowded..got quite sian..haha..yah lor..cos itz hot and crowded..haha yah..after tat juz go hme lor..haha

hmm excited abt tml!!!

CNY

hmm haha todae is cny..budden quite bored todae..haha..yupz..total colelcted ard 200 for angbao money..haha budden nvm lah..jh collect alot more..haha so dun need to worry..he will spend some on me..heehee..

hmm still ok lah..wanted to go for ktv..budden ive got stupid menstrual cramp..damn it..super serious..like last yr sept one i think..cannot stand up..if stand up den will b giddy..cannto hear..vision blurred super badly..yah..super sian..think im damn weak..drank too much cold water..haiz..yah lor..so slp until juz now..hmmm so sian!!!

CNY eve

hmm juz finished reunion dinner..i mean e first serving..cos got too many pple liao..tatz why have to split into shifts..haha yah think nxt time have to open up 3 tables..haha..yah cos everyone came abck to eat lor..yea..

hmm ate steamboat lah..nothing much..all e seafood lah..well not raellie..budden eat things tat we dun get to eat normally..like abalone and stuff lah..

hmm feel like a damn good gal todae..washed iron fold keep clothes..vacuum mop e floor..throw rubbish..hmm yah lor..haiz quite tiring lah..budden no choice..sis not helping..den daddy ong too busy putting up all his lights and small lanterns..den if i dun do den pple will nag at me..like im e eldest..so do all these is duh..esp since mummy ong is not around liao..

hmmm somehow make me feel damn sad..cos got 1 less person..haiz.wonder how she's doing..budden i dunnoe whether to be angry at her anot..someimtes im reallie mad at ehr..for being so irresponsible..leaving us juz liddat after wat she ahs done..budden daddy ong told me wat she did was cos she wanted to help e rest of e families..to give us a better life to live in..budfen haiz i dunnoe lah..she left behind a lot of debts..and now have financial problems..dunnoe how to go thru this period..pple may think im a strong person..budden too bad..im not..is juz tat i choose not to be too bothered abt it..i will get fed up when pple tok abt things like she is not ard anymore so i have to help out..and as e eldest shld take care of e house and sis and all tat..wat crap!!

anyway.happy new year everyone..

hmm watz happening to me??? wat m i doing?? haiz i reallie dunnoe wat has gotten into me..

tiring

hmm my back is breaking..super ache lor..hmm ahha tried e advantage todae..budden cannto lah..balancing like shit..carn reallie put in power at all..think if we use e normal k2 at least can reallie put in power..hmm ahah yah..when we applied power during fartlek..well i can feel e boat burst like mad..got good glide too...hmm haha..yeah.. kinda tiring lah..and did 400 pushuips todae..haha siao..

after tat went to eat lunch with wanying weifa waisiong..eh yah..den after tat went o jh house..

hmm oh i ate jack place todae..e food was ok lah..damn filling cos got e whole potato lah..hmm ahha..buden is super exp lah..2 pple..abt 50 liao..luckily he got discount so is abt 44 lah..still..super exp!!!

tiring

hmm im super tired todae!!!haha..as usual saturday is trng day..hmm haha..yah..did dragonboat todae lah..hmm was e pacer again..hmm haha did lotsa rowing and rowing..think tml my back will become super ache..budden heck!!!tml someone shall give me massage..haha..

hmm oh mingjing say im damn muscular..cos im e pacer..den when during e starting postition she can see my back muscles..damn big and toned!!haha yeah!!hmm ok tatz not supposed to b a reaction frm a gal..budden heck!!!haha..he also say muscular is nice..well not reallie muscular..buden TONED..haha..

24th day at work

hmm todae damn busy day..fixing..plug valves..staining..clean bottles..fixing..transferring of flies frm bottle to bottle..from valves to valves..den went to zap something from e drosophila book..haha..damn cool..now im going to read those information and before an expert..ahha no lah..juz some basic things to noe lah..hmm yupz..

went to tutor todae..still ok lah..cos apparently her house was at e end of e road..so i began walking from e main road..and e house started from 2!!!so i walked damn far inside lah..so hot..haiz..nvm lah..at least got money..hmm haha..still ok lah..realise have to go and touch up on my communication skills..tok until my mouth damn dry..hmm hope can continue to teach her lah..

hmm her house damn cool..quite big also..nice!!got rabbits..hmm wated nv get to see her dogs..if itz big kind at least im not tat scared..im more afraid of those small dogs tat come dashing at u..hmm haha..yah lor..weird rite..well anw yah itz nice like..got grand piano too!!!hmm too bad i carn play..haiz..eh yupz..nice house..

23rd day at work

hmm todae is still ok lah..nothing much..haha..budden got tok lah..so e day seem shorter..haha..budden still i dun understand wat e speaker tokking..haha..sorry..cos itz kinda damn chim lah..haha..

hmm did blocking todae also..hmm haha..

22nd day at work

hmm haah todae still ok lah..actually did fixing again lah..hmm budden get to transfer flies from valves..sortta help them change house lah..hah cos e old valve is almost 6 weeks old liao..and e food is eaten up..so have to change lah..still ok lah..at least got things to do and not stone around..was slping during lunch..hmm so tired lah..

yah guess tatz all..

50 things couple should do

1. Watch the sunset together.
2. Whisper to each other.
3. Cook for each other.
4. Walk in the rain.
5. Hold hands
6. Buy gifts for each other.
7. Roses.
8. Find out their favorite cologne/perfumeand wear it every time you're together.
9. Go for a long walk down the beach atmidnight.
10. Write poetry for each other.
11. Hugs are the universal medicine.
12. Say I love you, only when you mean it andmake sure they know you mean it.
13. Give random gifts of flowers/candy/poetryetc.
14. Tell her that she's the only girl you everwant. Don't lie!
15. Spend every second possible together.
16. Look into each other's eyes.
17. Very lightly push up her chin, look into hereyes, tell her you love her, and kiss herlightly.
18. When in public, only flirt with each other.
19. Put love notes in their pockets when theyaren't looking.
20. Buy her a ring.
21. Sing to each other.
22. Always hold her around her hips/sides.
23. Take her to dinner and do the dinner for twodeal.
24. Spaghetti? (Ever see Lady and theTramp?)
25. Hold her hand, stare into her eyes,kiss her hand and then put it over your heart.
26. Dance together.
27. I love the way a girl looksright after she's fallen asleep with her head inmylap.
28. Do cute things like write I love you in anote so that they have to look in a mirror toreadit.
29. Make excuses to call them every 5 minutes
30. Even if you are really busy doingsomething,go out of your way to call and say I love you.
31. Call from your vacation spot to tell themyouwere thinking about them.
32. Remember your dreams and tell her aboutthem.
34. Tell each other your most sacredsecrets/fears.
35. Be Prince Charming to her parents.
36. Brush her hair out of her face for her.
37. Hang out with his/her friends.
38. Go to church/pray/worship together.
39.Takeher to see a romantic movie and remember theparts she liked.
40. Learn from each other anddon't make the same mistake twice.
41. Describe the joy you feel just to be withhim/her.
42. Make sacrifices for each other.
43. Really love each other, or don't staytogether.
44. Let there never be a second during anygivenday that you aren't thinking about them, andmakesure they know it.
45. Love yourself before you love anyone else.
46. Learn to say sweet things inforeign languages.
47. Dedicate songs to them on the radio.
48. Fall asleep on the phone with each other.
49. Stand up for them when someonetalks trash.
50. Never forget the kiss goodnightand always remember to say, "Sweet dreams."



i love this..

21st day at work

hmm todae chailing nv come..so itz all on my own..spread plates..change plates..cut tips..

oh yah i was staring into e microscope for more than an hour..to pick out virgin females..so tiring on eeyes..yah..